November 10th, 09:37 | 12-month to-do list
I'm feeling oddly inspired and fired-up despite my sleep-deprivation-based headache (it's like being an intern again!) and general blah-ness/lack of motivation/energy when at work these days. What am I thinking about, you ask? Scarily enough, the Future. A couple months ago my dad was saying that I should formulate 5- and 10-year plans, no matter how rough, because if I didn't, I'd just never end up moving. At the time I was so overwhelmed I couldn't handle the thought. Since then, though, I've realized that, in a way, I've already formed one (a 5-year one, anyway). Much like the "jerk" narrator of Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time (in a discussion with the Boy -- me: he's not a jerk, he's autistic!; Boy: no, he's a jerk, who happens to be autistic!), I find that it's super-easy to get lost in time without schedules. This sounds stupid if you know me and my abhorence of All Things Pre-planned, but only if you get down to detail. I like having general plans for things. And apparently that extends to my life. Which is comforting. I feel far less lost now. Not there (wherever "there" is) yet, but I'm feelin good.
So, what is it I want to document before I go crazy and forget it all? I shall proceed to write the rest of this entry in point-form because I can! (Also it's clearer. ...yeah, that's it. Clarity.) So, I want to...
Of course, this makes me question (...again) why I'm still taking the bio course. Of course, I think it's a little late to drop it now, but still. Clearly my pharmacy-related pseudo-dreams are not ones I want to pursue. I appear to have chosen teaching. So... why the bio? Some strange part of me harbours weird dreams of someday getting another degree in pure biology (possibly a masters; I'm not big on the idea of doing another undergrad degree in a subject so close to my original one) but... why the bio101?
On the other hand, I figure by keeping myself overworked, I'm training myself better for future stresses. Time management. I have to learn sometime.
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